Nothing is easy right now. Trying to look objectively at each of the instances affecting my life recently, from the small daily challenges to the national level events, everything feels harder to sort out and deal with than usual. Twenty twenty was admittedly a really hard year and the year at hand looks to be following suit, so it might just be that I’m having a tired moment. When I’m tired everything looks a little bit bleaker so I need to make a concerted effort to get my second wind.
I do believe that things are rarely binary; strictly black or white, right or wrong, positive or negative. I believe that very rarely is someone purely evil and no one is purely good (deities aside) and some good can usually be found in any outcome. Perhaps it is my artistic perspective, or perhaps it is my idealistic life views, but I always believe things will be ok in the end. I have often been accused of Pollyannaism. Fair enough. Admittedly, it takes intervention on our part and is almost always difficult work, calling on calm and measured thinking, but it can be done…with grace and perseverance.
In the meantime, I will keep plugging along doing what I do to the best of my ability. I will keep processing the events of these days through my painting and my writing, and admit my processing will be reflected in my work.
Today’s painting, an 8″ x 10″ oil on canvas, is a self study – a snapshot that clearly reflects how I’m feeling at this moment and painted with an unfiltered eye. Rest assured, however, things are going to be ok.